Monday, February 20, 2006
hey everyone,
shifted to a
new blog !!!
click here ! (:
relink me please !
thanks !!!
2/20/2006 10:29:00 pm link to post
Saturday, February 04, 2006
hahas. finally back.
with so much feelings in me,
yet i don't know how to express.
oh well.
suffer in silence?
i guess it's okae since im so use to it.
he's gone.
out of my life.
from now on.
actually it's a few moments ago.
but it's okae.
let's start from now.
being in those kind of situations are just not my forte.
rather be someone who gives advices,
solving problems for others.
i now this kind of thoughts can't go on forever,
but at least for now.
well, though i encountered something saddening today,
happy things did happen too.
got a new naima (granny) !
hahas.
laughed while looking at the screen as i played maple just now.
send my brother laughing at things i said too.
hahas.
later going my aunt's house.
wonder what time i will be back.
maybe 12am or even 1am barhs.
been going there quite frequent nowadays.
and always stay till so late.
haix. bad.
kkae.
think end here barhs.
buhbye.
sometimes it's better to be blur. in that way, we won't get hurt by the truth.
2/04/2006 10:06:00 pm link to post
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
haix. now even my left calf is aching.
left calf plus right ankle.
both counter attack together.
one hit KO larhs ...
*yawnx.
i am so pathetic tired now.
my room is blasting with jay's music now.
but i seemed to be unable to hear anything.
sian.
something's wrong with me.
noises around me yet i can't seem to hear anyone of them clearly.
baby's cry, television's noise...
irritating.
well, maybe irritated nowadays cos of some things that happened recently barhs.
haix.
me, putting on a smile everytime,
doesn't mean that i am smiling inside.
but who knows when my smile is true,
and when it isn't ?
haix.
just scolded my brother over a lil matter.
sorry.
i think i got to apologise to anyone and everyone,
who i offended unknowingly when i was in a bad mood.
real sorry.
if i were to choose and if i could choose,
i also won't choose to be in the way i am now.
physics test tml.
but i don't know what to study.
whoots.
still remember once one person who is very close to me said this.
"you are just a over-sensitive creature and your rate of mood swing,
is that you can change mood every second."
she said that at a time when i was having mood swing.
and she was super fed up.
and said that in a very angry manner.
i really had no idea my mood swings can be that detestable.
oh well, guess i have to really control.
but first, think i have to learn how to.
yea.
thanks fiona for accompanying me in the afternoon.
sorry to someone who i dropped the phone on the floor.
(actually think the impact is = to that of throwing.
but i really didn't mean it ! SORRY... XXXX=)
kkae gtg.
buhbye.
1/25/2006 10:13:00 pm link to post
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
just now while sitting on the toilet bowl,
i was like just doing some random reflection.
then i found out some funny things in life.
there are so many things in life which is a confusion with itself.
ehhhh, what am i talking ?
or rather, how do i phrase it ?
hmmm... i shall give an example.
paper is inedible.
i mean it's not a food.
and things that are not food are classified under inedible stuffs aren't i right ?
but aren't there people outside who dare to eat paper ?
i think edible and inedible is like weird larhs.
when i was younger like in primary school,
i started thinking about it.
it's a matter of whether we want to eat,
or dare to eat.
anyone disagree ?
lolx.
oh ya.
another thing which i am quite confuse bout.
recently during english class,
we learn something called the
'RHETORICAL QUESTION'.
which means question that aren't meant to be answered.
an example the teacher gave was
'are you stupid or what.'
then after thinking a while,
i thought those answer can be answered ?
and quite a number of people around me answered.
example, asking them the question the teacher asked,
they can answer
'of cos i am not stupid la. and by asking that question, you are stupid. cos where got people say they stupid de? your question like rubbish.'
lolx.
ermmm, actually sometimes i do say myself stupid. X=
ya. that's all for my 'reflection' on the toilet bowl.
ahhahahas.
oh ya.
still remember just now at msn,
i was like bursting.
i was very angry and sad just now larhs.
why ?
cos someone stole my maths textbook.
okae fine.
i am not sure if that person actually stole or took by accident,
but the book is missing and that's the only thing i know.
i am sure it has been in the cupboard.
cos some time ago i still see my own book in the cupboard.
haix.
if that someone took it by mistake,
return it to me yea?
i miss my book.
haix.
think that's all.
got to sleep soon.
quite tired.
LOLX.
kkae.
buhbye.
nitenitez.
takecare... (:
1/24/2006 09:40:00 pm link to post
Monday, January 23, 2006
sheesh. my ankle's aching again.
think got to dig for my ankle guard.
it has been a long long time since i last use it.
real long.
think for like months?
and nearly a year.
lolx.
having mood swing now.
think partly due to lack of sleep last night.
partly cos of my ankle.
things that happened,
and maybe cos im not in a clear mind now.
actually wanted to thrash something out.
but maybe like what joanne said,
now is really not the time.
i got to think about it carefully,
make the right decision.
then thrash things out.
cos now when im in a confuse state of mind,
i might say the wrong thing,
and regret for the rest of my life.
so... just got to think of things first.
well, actually i think what joanne said is very true.
even though at times,
i am the one who gave others advices,
suggestions and stuffs,
but when i am the one is such situations,
i am in a confuse state like how they are.
onlookers always get the clearer view.
well, after typing everything out,
i feel so much better. (:
thanks joanne for helping me sort out my thoughts.
thanks.
takecare everyone who are unwell yea?
get well soon. (:
kkae got to go play maple with joel.
JOANNE'S BROTHER.
he's super cute. ((:
gtg.
buhbye.
1/23/2006 09:12:00 pm link to post
Sunday, January 22, 2006
so long never blog.
Ookae... so i'm back.
hmmmm... just came back from suntec not long ago.
went there to have lunch with eileen and nana.
after the nball carnaval.
had lunch at pasta mania.
believe it or not, that's my second time eating at pasta mania.
hahas. the same goes to eileen.
then ate till very full lorhs.
talking about the carnival,
today wasn't as good as last week.
maybe cos of the players?
and btw i got pissed by someone during the carnival.
hmmm... i don't think i'm going to name that person.
anyway i'm posting just to vent my anger?
and not to make an enemy.
so... yea.
i think x is such a fake.
well, actually x didn't do any particular act to make me get pissed.
but it's all x's actions that did it.
haix.
not only did she backstab someone else,
but she still act.
she did it so openly and still hopes no one notice.
diaoz.
and i think x very act big larhs.
oh whatever.
but just wanna add,
i wasn't the only one who got agitated.
others too.
and worse than me too.
kkae whatever.
at the last game of the carnival,
played a game with random positions.
and i played WA and GA.
spastic.
i didn't even now how to play those positions.
to be exact, first time playing them.
LOLX.
and i guess i made a few of the others angry.
hahas.
cos i was like at places other than the place i'm suppose to be.
sorry to whoever got angry cos of my mistakes.
sorry.
oh well, suppose to do an essay on "i'm stronger than yesterday".
but i don't know what i'm suppose to write.
haix.
and still have quite a lot of other homework too.
got to start.
bye.
don't do what you don't want others to do to you to others.
1/22/2006 05:20:00 pm link to post
Friday, January 13, 2006
back from camp.
SUPER DUPER TIRED.
yet VERY HIGH NOW.
ahhahas.
kkae.
don't feel like blogging more now.
tomorrow yea ?
night.
*CHEERS. ((:
3A1`o6 ROCKS !!!!
no words can express how i'm feeling.
I LOVE YOU GUYS !!!!! <3
1/13/2006 10:31:00 pm link to post
Sunday, January 08, 2006
i'm suppose to be doing my homework now.
guess what.
I FORGOT WHAT MY HOMEWORK IS.
how bad could it get ?
having mood swings now. or is it PMS ?
whatever. just not feeling gay (happy).
maybe because of the rain.
stoopidx rain.
the carnival today postponed cos of the rain.
... next week got to go back again.
dots. i am angry.
just now after we dismiss from the nball center me, nana, sharonq., atiqah, and limei walked to the busstop.
didn't now sharing an umbrella with nana can be so fun. LOLX.
laughed and screamed. ahhahas.
hmmmm. then after that went walk walk at suntec and marina.
nana pangseh me. went home. ):
then like that barhs.
after that went home ...
then now rotting in front of com lorhs.
haix.
in other words, stoopidx rain.
tml reporting time for school is 8.45am.
stylo worhs. get to sleep a bit later.
think i will still reach school at bout 8am lorhs.
ahhahas. cos my PAPA POWER. ((:
kkae. takecare !~ (:
signed,
sze.
1/08/2006 07:32:00 pm link to post
Sunday, January 01, 2006
lolx. the first post of year 2006 of my blog. ... haix. not really have things to say larhs. ahhahas.
yesterday morning went to baibai (pray)
evening went to IMM.
at night go countdown.
like that lorhs.
nothing liao.
not really very happy larhs.
tired ... *drop dead.*
aching at the back of my neck to my shoulders.
pain. uncomfortable.
haix. nothing to say !!!!!
oh ya. that person at my tagboard.
... ermmm if you want tag tag properly yea ?
want scold people also scold properly yea ?
talk clearer ...
if not i don't understand...
then cannot clear misunderstanding.
ahhahas. really don't know what you talking about. XX=
kkae end here barhs.
buhbye people.
takecare.
happy year 2006.
*CHEERS. ((:
1/01/2006 12:00:00 pm link to post
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
... ... just now i think for a very long time one question.
" what's my aim in life? " ...
actually i didn't even know what that question means.
i mean does it mean " what i want to achieve at the end of my life ",
of does it mean " what i want to achieve in life ".
i know what i want to be when i grow up.
but am i even on the way there ?
in life, till now, i think i haven't achieve much.
is it time for me to start achieveing things ?
is it time for me to change my attitude ?
i think i am a pathetic soul.
i am a coward. a pathetic coward.
upon seeing people who are better than me in certain areas,
areas that i know i am weak at,
i walk away. without trying.
what is this ?! i bet it's something i am not proud of.
haix. actually i also don't know exactly what i am doing,
and why i am doing this.
but i just feel like relieving it somewhere.
WHATEVER.
crazy is what i am now.
haix. think better go sleep.
takecare.
12/28/2005 10:59:00 pm link to post
Saturday, December 24, 2005
hahas back. posted some pictures of some events up just now. hahas.
oh ya. yesterday some of 2b1`o5 went to bryan's house for a BBQ XMAS PARTY.
quite fun and nice. hahas. had loads of fun.
at first when i went there with wati we 'lost' our way ! ahhahas.
then we had to call bryan. and his instructions were like ... -_- '''
we walked one big round around novena square larhs ! hahas.
but in the end we did manage to get to his house. and we found out that his house was nearer to where we first started after getting out of the MRT station. -_- '''
haix. nvm. don't really know what i am talking ! ahhahas.
then ermmm... watching 'CREEP' at his house was the first thing we did.
that show's damn freaking disgusting.
that psycho is really a psycho.
WHATEVER. got freaked out while watching. X=
after that went down to the POOL ...
the boys were sporting larhs. jump down into the pool.
but some weren't. -_- ''' call them for long long time still didn't get down.
in the end still didn't get down. haix. shan't force them though.
got guard scold us lorhs.
actually that guard didn't scold us for only once.
think loads of times lorhs. sad.
BBQ next !!! set up the fire !!!
but after it was done and fire burning, RAIN. -_- '''
BUT NVM !!!! we fought it. (:
hehe... AND TADA !
the rain's gone. wahahahahas.
ate stuffs. junks. FOOD.
then everything starts to get bored.
TILL... WATERBOMBS !!! (((:
PUMP ! WITH WATER AND AIR ! AND THROW !!!!!
lolx. fun. real fun.
after that gota go home. WITH JUSTIN AND KENNETH IN MY CAR.
MY CAR. hahas. what's wrong with saying that it's MY car ? MY CAR. (:
hahas. cos mingyang and xino were like YOUR CAR ? ahhahas.
that's all lorhs. but i was touched ? and happy.
i am sure, VERY SURE, that i will miss 2b1`o5.
haix. but what can i do ? haix.
gota go. CHRISTMAS COUNTDOWN PARTY up next. ((:
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !!!!!!! (((:
12/24/2005 07:24:00 pm link to post
PHOTO ALBUM.
photos taken during class xmas party...very scary. can't stop barking. XXX=
bryan's dog.
mingyang cleaning his leg after 'water bomb war'
his leg sexy marhs ? he say it is worhs. LOLX. (:
bbq fire. set up by me, wati, mingyang and justin ?
was it justin? hmmm...
me and huiyan after getting out of the pool. (:
soccer in the pool ! (:
from top to botttom: xino, mund, mingyang.
don't let me take a nicenice picture of you all right ?!
nvm. you guys will look like this ! (:
photo taken during the chalet at pasir ris...
me and mousey !
isn't it huge ? won it at escape !
had a hard time carrying it back to the chalet. hahas ! (:
*photo taken by heng. (:photos taken during dinner to celebrate grandpa's bdae...
me and a chocolate strawberry ! hahas.
*photo taken by my dear brother suan. (:
me, szu and kok. i love this shot man. nice. (:
*taken by my dear brother, suan again ! ((:
12/24/2005 06:50:00 pm link to post
Thursday, December 22, 2005
waaaa. today total sianzness. morning went school after that whole day at home liaoz. zZzZz.rotting ...
haix. nowadays really nothing to do at home sia. only went blog-hopping and friendster-hopping. hahas. actually me have a lot of stuffs to do. but those are the stuffs i don't feel like doing. ahhahas. paikia right ? WHOOTS.
oh. i also went to this website which SOMEONE gaven when helping me make the background of friendster. currently that person is PISSING me off at msn.WHOOTS. in a good way though. cos i don't know if i should laugh or cry. LOLX. scolded me dumbass. wth ... oh btw at that webby found lots of nice pictures.wana view? ahhahas. comments please. rates are also welcomed. (:
don't judge by people's look. but what under the skin ; inside.
be extraodinary !!!! like the penguin second from the right. (:
the penguin one cute right ? hahas.
haix. tml gota reach school by 7.15am cos gota help out in the sec 1 orientation.very early worhs. hope i can wake up. X= but my papa gonig to drive me there !!! WHEE !~ PAPA's POWER's GREAT. ( ppg. ) hahas.
I LOVE PPG !!! ((:
Kkae. gota rest early. tml gota lead sec 1s !!!! so excited bout this 'job'. (: hope i do a good job !
signed off
takecare !~ (:
sze.
12/22/2005 09:58:00 pm link to post
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
ohoh. i forgot the cold joke. LOLX.
one day, a war started between country M and S.
after a long long fight, country S lost.
*S = leader of country S. M = leader of country M.
S: i give up. ( waves white flag ) come bomb me. put gun at my head and shoot also can.
M: ... ( no movement )
S: quick quick. i rather you do that than looking at you.
M: ... ( moves back. light up a bomb. throw. ) muahahaha... you die le.
S : haven't lehs. i saw you throwing the bomb towards the wrong direction.i saw you throwing it behind you.
M: ...
S: LOOK OUT !
* TOO LATE.
* KABOOM.
the ending of the story, country S won. (:
oh. story inspired by the chat with mingyang.
12/21/2005 09:56:00 pm link to post
whoots. after a long long time am finally back blogging. guess my blog here rot much while i am away barhs. hahs. but nvm. here i am to revive it ! (:
just came back not long ago from outside cos i had to meet joanne to give her her present. hahas. jo, nice or not ? i think i really wrap until very *ewwwwwww. hahas. hope you don't mind yea ? and hope you like the present. (:
think i am recovering from my illness le barhs. so friends ! don't worry ! hahs. the lamer here won't fall de. lolx. will always be alive to crap around. hahas. : D
haix school's reopening soon. frankly speaking, i don't feel like going back to school yet. still have loads of things that i wish to do during the holidays that i haven't do yet. yea. haix. INCLUDING HOLIDAY HOMEWORK. X= Oops. hahas.
NOW I AM SO SIAN ! should i crap around ? hmmm. nvm. later say one cold joke. hahs. hope by doing it singapore will start snowing. WHOOTS. that will be like HOW NICE. SNOW IN SINGAPORE. (:
hmmm. actually am suppose to go to school tomorrow. but i don't know if i should go. cos i think it won't be important. but hmmm. on second thought, i won't lose out by going to school tomorrow. and some more maybe i won't be that bored ? hmmmm. let me consider.
i think i haven't blog for a real long time le worhs. cos it's like ehhhhhhh. i forget the way to use some of the stuffs around here. yea. time to pick the skills back. hahas.
Kkae end here. nitez.
oh. merry early christmas everyone. (:
12/21/2005 09:26:00 pm link to post
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
haix. sian. going China - beijing tomorrow le. don't feel really happy though. hahs. not excited too. LOLX ... kkae never mind. hahs. haix. for the next few days, won't be able to blog, won't be able to chat on MSN, no nothing. oh, how sad. haix. then before i leave can't even say bye to everyone. HOW SAD LA !!! so pathetic can !!! oh whatever. i guess some of them can't be bothered too. sad.
everyone keep telling me to be careful when i reach China. but i really wonder my capabilities. i am to use to throw everything around my table, my room. when i feel like it, then i pack. i wonder how long i can survive with that bad habit of mine. LIKE A SHIT CAN ! never mind. i shall force myself to do just the right thing. yes.
PRESENTS. that's another head-aching thing. i'm afraid that i will forget to buy presents for some people. and at that time, it will be too late. TOO TOO LATE. guess i have to buy EXTRAS. i can be quite forgetful at times. hahs. so much for my QUITE. LOLX ...
kkae. i think end here barhs. GOODBYE EVERYONE ... I WILL MISS YOU GUYS DE !!! tata ... (' x
11/01/2005 09:54:00 pm link to post
Monday, October 31, 2005
lolx. back after a long long time. was asked to update though. hahs. kkae. here goes ...
MY CLASS ROCKS !!! haix. will never forget the times we had as 2b1`o5. you guys rock kae ? well, actually wanted to post pictures de. but i had a hard time trying to post them here ! oh never mind. if any of you guys want them, get them from me yea? will send to you then. lolx.
FRIDAY. last day of school. i bet MOST of us were sad. well, i said MOST cause i think maybe some of them won't be THAT sad. yea. haix. actually wanted to cry. but i just can't get the tears out. lolx. oh never mind ... few of them cried. yea. took a lot of pictures !!! had quite a lot of fun. I WILL SURE MISS YOU GUYS !!! haix.
SATURDAY. had CIP (community involvement programme). went to collect newspaper as a class. i was the 'photographer'. yea. had to go around taking photos. but i was happy though. ENJOYED IT ACTUALLY. lolx ...
actually in short i am just sad that 2b1`o5 is going to separate and it's sure that all of us will not be in the same class le. haix. but you guys must still rock on kae ? and you all must never forget about 2b1`o5 yea ? haix.
think that's all barh. 2b1`o5-ians ROCK ON... tata. (:
*as we go on, we remember ; all the times we, had together... WE WILL STILL BE FRIENDS FOREVER.
10/31/2005 12:23:00 pm link to post